Lesson Three

This last lesson I just had was a pretty tough one. From questioning my abilities, questioning myself, family,friends, people I love leaving in a blink of an eye,the whole works. I had thought to myself, bring it guys, I made it through all last year and pulled through stronger than ever.Well let's just say I now know why they say be careful what you wish for. My guys were really testing me. I'm not going to make this as detailed as the other lessons because it's way to long, so here is the short version of it.

My whole Dads side of family is gifted, some blocked, some not. My Dad is blocked at the moment and I have been trying to help him unblock himself and it takes a lot energy, but I was all in ready to help because it's what he has done for me my whole life, yet my guys told me to block him out. Talk about a hard turn, he has been in all of my lives as my father and we are so connected. I know when something is wrong with him without even talking to him and vise versa. So blocking him out was not an easy one, I know why so I'm trying my hardest to get through this. "Tough love" as they call it,he is transitioning and shedding old skins of his own and needs to do so on his own. It's the only way to learn and to test our abilities. My dad had gotten Reiki, a Universal healing energy transmitted through practitioner to patient.I was not aloud in the room while the process was happening, so I waited across the street. I felt everything and seen everything he had. I told myself this is what I need to do for my daughter, I need to go to school for this and help heal her, so I did. The Universe sure does have a funny way of working and connecting people. It worked for my Dad for a little awhile and he started to see and remember but was blocked yet again, because he needs to still learn his own lessons.

My husband like I've said before has never fully believed but when I passed my first Reiki course, it was like a whole different side of him came to light. He was so proud of me, he was my first "client" you can say.I told myself if he fells better after this I know its my calling, to make a non-believer into a believer, hello huge sign from Universe. The next day he said he hadn't felt that good in long time, I was so proud of both of us,after all we had came so far. I kept progressing spiritually, we were growing together, it was everything I had ever wanted. He had something happen to him that was hard for him, and a couple weeks later I had a "word vomit" moment, and that was it, I crossed a boundary, but it needed to be crossed in order for me to grow. It wasn't something I had tried to do, trust me I was avoiding it like the plague. He had reverted back and instead of growing together we grew apart. I had dreams, gut feelings, the whole nine yards, battle of me against my guys and the Universe, and I do not want another "Tower" moment.

So I have surrendered yet again knowing that all odds are against me, we have to many astrological things happening in the Universe and I need to just go with the flow right now, I have not made any rash decisions like I want to, held back my "word vomiting" as much as possible. For once I'm keeping my mouth shut instead of being the blunt person I am. In doing so, I have became more open, heard things more clearly, delivered messages that needed to be delivered, broke karmic ties all in a short amount of time. I need to give credit where it is due as well, because I didn't do it all alone. Even though we have struggled I thank my parents for understanding and accepting me for who I am and all my quarks I have, my word vomits, and having faith in my messages I have given. No matter how easy or hard the messages were to hear. My Auntie Sandi, for always understanding and giving me a different perspective when I chose to read emotionally and don't listen to my own advise. Telling me I need to separate my ego from my higher self. My husband, for coming in blindly to this marriage not knowing how far I would grow,helping me learn who I was and loving me the way he did. They have helped me grow so much, more than I had ever imagined. And of course my close friends who have been by my side through it all, you know who you are and I'm forever grateful. Till the next lesson arises which it surely will, and conquering all the fears I have to grow as much as I possibly can. Plus don't forget, tomorrow will be the first Weekly Collective Reading, So be on the look out :)

With Love and Light,

Breana.